Nightfall, here we go. They're all coming.....3...2...1..The noisiest time is when you hear nothing but silence, we all get a little taste of it, right before going to bed, just staring blankly and motionless at the ceiling in the dark, you hear nothing, then out of nowhere, you hear everything. From the regrets of yesteryear to the worries of tomorrow. One by one they start to creep out, making you toss and turn, hour after hour, the harder part comes crashing-you start to feel lonely, frustrated that no one seems to understand, and the pain you thought you had defeated way back, hits you right in the face like a boomerang. Tears are forming, with all your might, you desperately make an effort to hold them back not only because you're hurting but because of the fact that you're burned out, exhausted, jaded. You curl up and wrap your arms around yourself for comfort. You realize, "oh sh*t I'm back to where I started. Not again!!"
Faced again with the same looking crossroads, you already know what's at the end of each path, you've been there, done that. Nothing's changed, nothing's improved. What is left to do? What am I doing wrong? You start to question yourself and fail to retrieve the answers. You try to contain your mind, trying to make it stop thinking even for a minute, but the more you resist the louder the noise gets.
Life can be painful. It can be unfair. But I know you know that we all have a choice, a choice of how we handle it, the mere attitude of facing what lies ahead; and you'll say "I've already looked left and right, both paths led me to nowhere"
..and I say to you, pause, breathe, you've been trying to move forward, but with what? with all the fears and insecurities and confusion you carry within your fragile heart..It's time to drop 'em leave 'em behind, take off your mask, why are you wearing one anyway? Don't be afraid to show your emotions don't be hesitant to release what's been kept inside. You are HUMAN. You're not alone. I know you're hurting, I can see past the smiles and even though you say you're alright/you'll be fine..still i can see the soul inside, scared and broken. Let's take a step back and hand over your worries. Now, become an empty canvass, strip your confusion off. Don't get caught up with something you're not sure of yet. Free your mind. You'll find what you're looking for along the way, this time without the extra baggage affecting your decisions your wants. They're right in front of you, all you gotta do now is decide. Decide with a clear head and with an open heart.
I won't say this journey is easy. Never was. Never is. Never will be. Nevertheless, you will have to go through this. You will make that decision. But I assure you, you won't have to go through it alone. Look up, He's there. Look beside you. I'm here. When they're all gone, We will still be here.
©broken1209
